" When we recall the past, we usually find it is the simplest things - not the great occasions - that in retrospect give off the greatest glow of happiness "

Bob Hope

Wednesday, December 19, 2012

New Beginnings





                                                      New Beginnings

     All of my postings so far have been about the past, not that I want to hold on to the past so much but the past is where I once lived, where I once played and built memories that have lasted a lifetime. I have enjoyed writing these stories and think I have a few more yet to tell but now I am going to break precedent and speak of the future.
     Saturday, the 15th of December 2012 at 12:13 pm a most beautiful little brunette entered my life, she weighed in at 6 lbs. 5 oz and stood 19 in tall, she immediately stole my heart. I am speaking of my Granddaughter Michaela Judy Riggan.
     It was love at first sight as I held her in my arms for the first time and looked into her eyes, her tiny fingers struggled to wrap around one of mine but she managed a grip and held on tight. I wanted to cry out of sheer joy for the moment but too many tears had rolled down my cheeks lately. I do not want Michaela's life to start out in tears even if they are for joy, her childhood should be filled with laughter, her youth with excitement and her life with happiness.
     To me Michaela is a bright star on the horizon of the evening sky twinkling and shining brighter as it rises higher into the darkness that cloaks us. She is the future of this branch of the Riggan family and I look forward to making memories that will last her a lifetime.
     Today I watched as her Grandmother held her, I saw a twinkle in Linda's eyes that was once reserved for Danny and Clay, I think though this twinkle may be brighter for Michaela. This little girl has captivated us both, as Grandparents we promise to willingly fulfill our duties and responsibilities to her; she will be loved and spoiled as Linda and I have been waiting for her for a long time.  All I can say is the wait was worth every moment. Thank you, Marie, for the gleam you put in Linda's eye and the smile on her face, we love you.
     I watched my son gently work his fingers around Michael's body as he picked her up to place her in my arms, the expression on his face was one of love and pride. My mind went back some 32 years to a night when I gazed upon his face for the first time, I wondered if fathers thru the ages have had the same expressions and feelings, I think so, there is something about your first born that never changes.
     I want to say to Danny and Marie that we are proud of you and love you very much, Michaela's arrival could not have come at a better time, this is the best Christmas present I or Linda have ever received.


     As for Michaela, just grab my finger and hold on tight. The path is not always smooth but your Mom, Dad, Grandmother and I will do our best to keep a smile on your face and laughter in your voice.



     Postscript: 
            This was a serious time for Linda, she had been taken to the emergency room several days before and laid in ICU with a tube down her throat for two days, there was serious doubt she would last through the first night. She needed open heart surgery but was too weak for the procedure so she was spending time in the hospital to build up her strength. Her doctor allowed her to be taken down to the hospital cafe to see MJ, the staff knew the surgery was iffy and this could be the only time she would ever see MJ.

Saturday, December 15, 2012

You Can't Pick Your Relatives





                            You Can't Pick Your Relatives





     Computers, although a pain in the butt, are really interesting things to have around when you can just goof off with them.  The other day I Googled myself and came up with over 40 pages of references to Michael, to Douglas, and to Riggan.  From there I found other interesting tidbits of information, both good and not so good, pertaining to the Riggan clan.
     For instance, there is a Riggan cemetery in Monroe County, MS. and a street named Riggan in Olive Branch, MS.  I had no idea the clan had spread that far but it seems that the largest population of Riggan's is located in North Carolina followed by Virgina then Tennessee, Mississippi, Arkansas, Oklahoma, and Texas.  The ancestors didn't stop there as there are now people with the surname of Riggan in just about every state in the US.
    There is a cemetery in Bridgeport, Washington where Allie, Edward, Hazel, Johnny, Mary,  and Sandra are laid to rest.  They are all Riggan .
     I was interested to find more about the history of the Riggan clan such as a website that says the name Riggan originally came from France in the 1500's.  They were Huguenots, French Protestants,  who left the southern regions of  France for England in search of religious freedom.  Based on this I can now say that my ancestry encompasses French , English , Scottish and Irish.  My memory of world history tells me that France was over run by the Romans and Germanic tribes of the region as well as traded with the Vikings.  I have often wondered where I came from and now find myself still wondering.
     There is a Riggan in most every branch of the service and every level of responsibility and every ruckus the nation has ever been in had a Riggan to back it up.  Francis Riggan, one of my Great Great Great Fathers , fought as a Private in the Revolutionary war.  He was from Warren County, NC and in 1833 at the age of seventy he started drawing a pension of $20.00 per month for his service . There was also a William P. Riggan who fought in the revolution.  He was a Private from Halifax County, NC .  He also drew a $20.00 pension at age 73.   Wonder if this is who my brother Pat is named after?
     In researching Francis I found his will and the will of Michael  I. Riggan who died around 1853. Seeing as how he is the only ancestor I have run across named Michael, I guess I was named after him.  Works for me .
     During the Civil War the surname Riggan was found in Confederate records 50 times and in Union records 11 times.
     There was a Walter G. Riggan in Denver, Co who fought in the Spanish American War.  He was an Assistant Adjutant and Quartermaster for the General Lawton Camp # 1 of the United Spanish American War Veterans in 1931.  He was born in 1874 and died in 1963.
     Edward C. Riggan from Parker, OK fought as a Private in WWI.  Of course Dad and his brothers fought in WWII.  Brother Pat and I were in Viet Nam and little sister Vickie did a hitch in the Navy during the 1980's.
     Many of our cousins are involved in higher education . The Dean's List and Honor Rolls of many colleges and universities across the country are riddled with the name of Riggan.  Joyce Ann Riggan made the Dean's list for the last two years running at Bevill State Com. College in Alabama .
     There is a Rev. Walter Riggan who is a tutor and lecturer at the All Nations College in Hertfordshire, England.  He is also an ordained minister in the Church of Scotland.
     Robert Ethan Riggan is a Theatrical student at Middle Tenn State University in Murfreesboro, Tn.
     Need legal advice?  Call cousin Russ of the Russ Riggan Law Firm LLC in Kirkwood, Mo.  Maybe he will give a family rate.
     Do not call (hopefully very distant cousin), Robert Lee Riggan Jr in Denver, Co.  He tried to represent himself in a murder trial and failed.  In 1997 he was convicted of first degree murder in the death of a 21 yr old prostitute .  A jury gave him the death penalty but a panel of judges converted the sentence to life without parole.  I guess every family has a closet with relatives no one wants to claim and from what I read Robert and his immediate family would fill a couple of closets.  Just be sure to throw away the key .
     On a lighter side, I have said in a previous blog that little sister Vickie was a one and only - well, that ain't so.  I have discovered a Vickie Lynn Riggan in Lone Tree, Iowa.  I'm not good enough to figure out what she does there but her name was listed twice in the local newspaper with dollar amounts next to them.  Either she is owed a lot of money or she owes a lot of money.  I'll let little sister decide if she wants to contact her doppelganger . But wait , after talking with little sister she said there is another Vickie Lynn Riggan in of all places Nashville , TN. . This brings us to the question - might there be more ?
     Little sister Vickie has a friend named Brenda Baird.  I was interested to find a site that confirms the Baird and Riggan families are related by marriage.  In one instance a Baird guy married a Riggan girl and in another case a Riggan guy married a Baird girl.  Guess that means Brenda and I are cousins?
     Jerrod A. Riggan of Brewster,WA was drafted to the NY Mets baseball team in 2000 as a pitcher and played two seasons before being traded to the Cleveland Indians for another season.  He wound up playing for the Hanshin Tigers in Japan in the 2003-2004 season.  I also found a Jerrod Riggan as a Columbia River fishing guide - maybe he gave up on baseball?
     Scott Riggan is a music minister in Eagle, Idaho.  He recorded a version of Silent Night in 2003 and has quite a list of religious recordings in his name.
      Last but not least there is a John Riggan that works for the Nashville Zoo.
      I never knew the Riggan clan had grown so large or that it contained so many people that have or had such interesting lives.  All of these people and more have the Riggan name in common and they all can trace their beginnings back to a few ancestors who set foot in America in the mid 1600's.  This does not include the daughters of our ancestors who married into other families and whose offspring may very well be your next door neighbor.  Kinda adds a whole new meaning to the phrase  "small world ".
     The Internet has opened up a whole new world for me.  It is nice to know that when I get so decrepit that all I can do is sit in front of a computer I can at least keep up with cousins I will probably never meet or get to know but with whom I share a name .
    

    

Tuesday, December 11, 2012

1947






                                                                     1947


     I got curious a few days ago --- just what important happenings occurred as I was entering the rat race?
     Thanks to the Internet and my wife's finally bringing us into the 21st century by setting us up with high speed Internet service, when you are curious about something the answer is only a click away. Well, being a click away is only if you know what you are doing on a computer.  I struggle and some times I strike oil.  No matter how frustrated I get (wish we hadn't thrown out the set of encyclopedias) , perseverance being my middle name and having several hours to spend clicking thru the Internet, I found some of the answers I needed.
      1947 was not a bad year.  Neither was it a great year.  On the whole it was sort of so-so. The nation had just fought a world war and was transitioning to a peace time economy.  We didn't know of the looming Korean conflict on the horizon. For now the men were coming home, starting families and getting on with all life had to offer - hence, the "baby boom".  1947 was the second year of the  "baby boom" and in excess of 3.5 million babies were born that year. I happen to think my birth was the most important .
     May 5, 1947 was a Monday.  There was a full moon at 4:53 in the morning and it was spring time in Tennessee. According to Mom and Dad, I didn't come into this world easily but I made it.  The first of five kids.  The baby boom was far from over.
     So what was going on in the US of A on May 5, 1947? 
     Harry Truman was President ( he was serving the remainder of Roosevelt's term ).  There was no vice president. The population of the US was 144,126,071 ( that one on the end was me ). Federal spending was $35.5 billion  and the National Debt was $257.1 billion. The life expectancy was 66.8 years and you could send a first class letter anywhere in the US for three cents.
     The average salary was $2,850.00 annually.  A new house cost $6,600.00 and a new car only cost $1,300.00.  Gas was 15 cents per gallon, bread was 13 cents per loaf and you could eat a porter house steak for only 69 cents per pound.
     A picnic train in Queensland Australia derailed killing 16 and injuring 38.  There was a flood in the Mississippi valley that killed 16 and caused millions in damage .
     Eleanor Roosevelt wrote in her daily column, "MY DAY ", pleading for financial pledges in support of the newly formed International Refugee Organization.  She was concerned that the US had yet to lend support -  after all we were now a world leader.
     The biggest headline was in the Times-Picayune of New Orleans, La.  Seems that on May 4 there was a bold prison break at the Acre Prison in Jerusalem.  The Israeli underground force, known as the Irgun, liberated some 251 Jewish and Arab prisoners while attempting to free eight of their leaders.  I saw the movie Exodus and the prison break in the movie followed the events of the real prison break.
     Doesn't sound like exciting times.  I guess most people were busy working on the baby boom.
     The year as a whole was some what exciting though.  More of the Dead Sea Scrolls were discovered .
     The CIA was established and a guy named Walter Morrison invented the Frisbee.
     Jackie Robinson, the first Negro to break the color barrier in major league baseball, signed with the Brooklyn Dodgers .  As great a player as he was it didn't help them win the series in Sept.
     Great Grandpa Sam Riggan passed away in February.  He was 80. Sorry I missed you Gramps.
     Barbara Walker of Memphis, Tn. was crowned the 21st Miss America in Atlantic City, NJ.  She was the last Miss America to be crowned in her bathing suit.
     The Polaroid camera was invented in 1947.  Now you can see the picture you took 60 seconds after you took it.
     May was a good month for the movies.  Two of my all time favorite movies came out in May - "The Ghost and Mrs Muir" starring Gene Tierney and Rex Harrison - and what is Christmas without watching "Miracle on 34th Street" starring Maureen O'Hara, John Payne, Edmund Gwen as Santa and a very young Natalie Wood.
     Unlike in the movie, the Jewish ship EXODUS was prevented from landing in Israel by the British. The ship was loaded with 4515 Jewish men, women, and mostly children from all over war torn Europe who were attempting to find a home in the birthplace of their people.  Ironically they had left countries they were born in because they felt persecuted, only to seek a homeland where the occupants swore to annihilate them. Sadly, it is now 65 years later and there is still no peace in the mid east.
     In July, according to who you want to believe, aliens crashed landed in Roswell, New Mexico. The Air Force said it was a weather balloon but nobody bought the story and from then on alien sightings have been world wide.  Sadly, I have never seen one .
     In September our newest bit of technology, "TELEVISION" broadcast Baseball's World Series for the first time. The New York Yankees beat the Brooklyn Dodgers in seven games.  I can't remember when we got our first TV but I can say for sure it was not 1947 and I can't imagine many people had one then.
     October 14 found Chuck Yeager high over the California desert in an experimental jet plane called the X-1.  He was attempting to break the sound barrier (768 mph).  Chuck pushed the plane to MACH 1.07 and became the fastest man alive.  Not long after this feat his record was broken by Scott Crossfield so Chuck went back into the air and broke the record again exceeding MACH 2.
     The last most significant event of the year was that some time in late November or early December my brother Pat was conceived.  He would be one of the 3.5 + million babies born in 1948.  Welcome,  little brother.
     All in all 1947 was like most years of the era.  People were happy that the Great Depression was behind them and World War II  was over. The future looked bright.  The brass ring was there for the taking - all you had to do was reach for it.

    

Friday, November 30, 2012

Finding Grandpa






                                                    Finding Grandpa


     For a few years now I have been somewhat interested in my heritage but the one who got me more involved was my little sister Vickie. She assumed that since I was retired I would have time to go to Nashville and help her track down the graves of our Great Grand Father Sam Riggan , his two wives and infant daughter .

     Before we get going , I think a little background is in order . Great Grandpa Sam was born May 26, 1866 and died Feb. 9 , 1947 ( 3 mos. before my birth ).  Dec. 22 , 1885 he married Mary E. ( Molly ) Greer.  They had five children.  Nina the last to be born Dec. 5, 1895, survived less than a month passing away Jan 2 , 1896.  She was followed in death by her mother, Molly, four days later. They were buried together .
      Mar. 12, 1897 Grandpa Sam married Sophia Jolly who was four years his senior, they had no children.  She passed away Jan. 19, 1944 and was buried in the same plot as Grandma Molly and Nina . When Grandpa Sam died he joined his two wives and daughter .
       Knowing that we have deceased relatives from the past is not enough for Vickie.  She needs visual proof of their existence.  Running around in old graveyards was not and still isn't on my bucket list but what the hell else is there for a newly retired guy to do.  So off I go to Nashville. Vickie also recruited her good friend Brenda Baird to help us in our quest although Brenda being an accomplished genealogist in her own right didn't require any arm twisting .
     Vickie and Brenda were at a stand still.  They had found out the above information and found out that the grave site was located in the Lagardo area of Wilson County, Tn.  Beyond that they were stumped .
     The first place we stopped was the library in Mt. Juliet. Vickie had previously found a family history written by a Great Aunt Marget Ballinger Sullivan.  I really had no idea I even had a Great Aunt living in Mt Juliet and was even more surprised to find out I went to school with her son Shelby and never knew he was my cousin.  He was a couple of years behind me and we traveled in different circles .
     The next place we went was the public library in Lebanon.  We prowled through old census books, books that recorded land transactions, and they even had books that listed every graveyard in the state as well as the people who were buried in them. We found where Grandpa Sam and his wife Sophia were involved in several instances of buying and selling land in the Lagardo and Martha communities but we couldn't locate the grave site .
     While we were in the area we visited a cemetery where one of Grandpa Riggan's brothers was buried and then stopped in Martha to visit the graves of Grandpa and Granny Riggan.  I was a young teenager when Grandpa died and in my mid twenties when Granny passed. This is the first time in more than forty years that I am looking down on their tombstones and I conjure up memories of the happy times I had as a kid following an old man thru the fields and seeing the worried look on Granny's face when I walked out the door .
     It wasn't that we didn't know where Grandpa Sam was buried - we knew he was buried in the Old Lagardo cemetery in Lagardo but Vickie and Brenda had not been able to find said cemetery in print or person.  I, being older and having a longer memory and having spent more time in Lagardo while growing up, determined they were looking in the wrong places so off we go on a road trip.
     I took them down several roads they had not known about because Vickie was just a baby when Dad stopped going to Lagardo after his Dad passed away. We located and tromped around several graveyards to no avail. Vickie and I spent almost a whole day roaming the cemeteries of Lagardo. Suprisingly there were quite a few.  Every family seemed to have it's own place for the soul to rest for eternity .
     The next stop was the State Archives in Lebanon .  They had even more books containing more graveyards and census information but they still couldn't give us the location of Grandpa Sam's grave. Anything you would ever want to know about Wilson County, Tn. from the date white men first set foot there can be found in the archives.
     During all of this searching it was discovered that Grandpa Sam was a business man who owned a general store and he bought and sold tracts of land from time to time.  I suspect that he was in a position to acquire land from his customers thru business dealings.  Many farmers back then would mortgage their crops or land for seed, grain, and fertilizer.  The merchants who supplied the items would take a note against property for merchandise. Somewhere along the way we found out that Grandpa Sam was big in the local Baptist church and he may not have gotten along with his son, my grandfather, because he may have been somewhat of a womanizer.  All of this was great information but it still didn't help us find his grave.
     Vickie and Brenda had to take care of other things and I wound up heading off on my own.  I started at the State Archives.  The lady there was very helpful and she pulled several books about graveyards from the shelf.  We had already gone thru a couple of them but we were trying to find a different approach.
     One thing that we had wanted was a copy of Grandpa Sam's obituary. Turns out there was only one newspaper printed in Wilson County back in 1947 and it was bi-weekly.  In other words, by the time the obit was published Grandpa had been buried for some time.  Thank goodness for word of mouth.  According to the obit Grandpa Sam was buried in Bloodworth / Thompson cemetery which was totally different from previous knowledge. Now we are getting somewhere.  This new information led us to a book listing all of the graveyards in Wilson County and sure enough there was Grandpa Sam.  I was even able to obtain a general area  to look in so off I went .
     Low and behold I found another graveyard or two we had not known about but they were not the one I was looking for. While driving around I saw a woman on a riding lawn mower and stopped to ask her for directions.  She brought out her mother who had only lived in the area for about 25 years, she in turn told me to go down the road to the little white house and if there was a car in the drive I should stop and ask for Miss Ann.
     Miss Ann as it turned out, was a the find of the century.  The house she lived in was the one she was born in some seventy odd years before.  It took me a few minutes to convince her I was not some con artist and then she started telling me how she knew of my grandparents, aunts and uncles.  She remembered Uncle Ray coming home from the war with wounds .  She was friends with and went to school with an older cousin, and, yes, she knew where the graveyard was located but she would have to take me to it or I would never find it .
     I got in the car with Miss Ann and her cousin.  She was right about being hard to find.  The graveyard was located just off Hwy 109 behind an equipment barn.  There were the grave stones - worn and broken.  Miss Ann drove me around the area.  Her knowledge of the area and the people brought back memories long forgotten. She was kind enough to allow me to return the next day with Vickie and Brenda.  She was a wealth of knowledge and a delight to talk with.
     I took Vicky and Brenda to the grave so they could see for themselves.  With a little help from some shaving cream we were able to bring up the carving on the stones and take pictures.
     So there you have it - Grandpa Sam, Grandma Molly, Grandma Sophia, and Nina are no longer lost.  Another page in the history of the Riggan family is written, and I can now include grave locator on my resume.  I have to admit I had a good time, but I think this was more a case of the blind squirrel finding the occasional nut.

Sunday, November 18, 2012

Lil' Sister




                                                              Lil' Sister



      Being the oldest of the family is not always what it should be but there are times when the good out weighs the not so good.  Take siblings for example, (there were times when I wished someone would have taken my siblings).  Growing up they could be a real pain in the butt.  Later on they were  a nuisance at times.  Now they are a part of my past, present and future. We have not always seen eye to eye and even now we don't always agree but we are tied together by blood- the bond of siblings. Each of us has walked the pathways of life some taking the right fork in the road others took the left and some paved their own roads. I miss not being close to my family I would like to see them more often, but whether we are close or far away I know that we have always been there for each other and always will be.
     My brothers and sister are somewhat scattered around the country and not always in touch with each other on a regular basis.  At this time not all of us even talk to each other, (Mom was wrong, I was only one of the kids with a stubborn streak), but there is always one binding agent that holds all of the other ingredients together - in this case that would be little sister Vickie.
     Vickie is eight years younger than me and looking back I would say she is lucky to have lived so long with four brothers.  She could be a real pain in the butt back then. She is the original one and only - the only girl in the family, the only girl in the family history to join the Navy, the only one of us to get a college degree, the only one of us to speak a foreign language, and the only one of us to have four husbands.
     I think Vickie has been more of a focal point for this family longer than any of us realize.  Her concern for everyones well being has always been a high point in her life.  Not just with her immediate family but also with her extended family, which seems to cover all of Tennessee, a good portion of the southeast and working on up the Ohio valley, then shooting out towards the west coast. I don't think she ever met someone she didn't know or know of - if she did they would be added to her family of friends by the end of the day.
     She can be some what bothersome, although never pushy, when she wants you to do something. But she only has best intentions and the welfare of all concerned at heart.  Vickie stays connected with each of her brothers and keeps us up to date with all of the happenings of our siblings, aunts, uncles and cousins far and wide. She is ready to embrace us in our pain or hug us in celebration. Each of us knows that if needed she will drop everything and be there for us. Speaking for myself,  all she needs to do is call and I will be there for her.
     I look forward to new entries to her blog as she travels around the country.  She has a knack for finding little out of the way places forgotten by all but those who remain. In these small country towns she finds the most interesting sights and places that most people would pass without a thought. In her past life she must have been an explorer.
     I have been proud of my sister although I admit to scratching my head from time to time when she comes up with some of her plans. I think of her as a free spirit with a whole world at her feet for exploration.  I envy her the ability to befriend so many people and maintain the relationship. My wish for her is that her life continues to be full, and free as the wind she follows.  I wouldn't change her for anything.
    I love ya, Sis.
     
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     When Linda's illness reached a point that her days in this world were few, I had reached a fork in the road and had no idea which way to turn, Hospice had told me that the end was near and I would be having a hard couple of weeks. I called Vickie and she dropped everything and came to help. It was a difficult couple of weeks but Vickie's presence made it easier. As it turned out Vickie was the last thing Linda saw and for that I thank her.

MOM




                                 MOM





     I recently went on a trip to Tennessee and Kentucky to visit family. Whenever we siblings get together at some point in the conversation we will talk of Mom, Dad, Aunts, Uncles and, Grandparents. While visiting with brother Clint and his wife Judy our conversation turned to Mom and Judy asked the question, "was Mom ever happy"?
     I had to think for a moment before answering,  you see the last few years of Mom's life were not the best years.  For whatever reason she could find very little to smile about.  She appeared  happy being miserable.  During this time frame Mom and I were not on speaking terms so I can only refer to things I had heard.
     Was Mom ever happy?  The answer to the question lies deep in the past and I can only attest to the things I know.
      While I had what I call a good childhood there were times when it was hard to please Dad. Switches and belts often ruined a good day of fun and games.  Mom though never laid a hand on me. Neither did she stop Dad's punishment.  Many times the only way Dad knew there was a problem was because Mom had told him.  Mom was the first person we saw when we woke in the morning and the last when we went to bed so it was natural that I felt closer to her.
     Once when Dad worked for Logan's grocery in Donelson, there was an old black guy who hauled off the trash and out dated produce.  He was a very friendly old man and I took a liking to him. One Christmas season he sold Christmas trees in a vacant lot on Lebanon Rd near Donelson Pike. He sold cedar trees that he cut from the local fields and mistletoe he shot from trees. My brother Pat and I helped him as much as any 8 - 9 year old boys were capable of help- I think mostly we kept the fire going in the barrel.
     We only worked for a couple of days and had more fun than of hard work but after all was said and done he paid us for our help. The pay wasn't much and between us we probably were given a dollar apiece if that much. We were like any young kid with money- it was burning a hole in our pocket as we decided how to spend it.
      The closest store was a five and dime store on the corner of Donelson Pike.  This was the precursor of the dollar store- only everything was five or ten cents. We went to the store and browsed around looking for just the right thing. One of the items we chose was a bottle of cheap perfume to give to Mom for Christmas.  I know we bought something else but at the moment I can't remember.
     Opening presents on Christmas Eve was tradition in our family and Pat and I watched as Mom opened the gift that we had spent so much time choosing just for her. Looking back I think it is safe to say that the perfume was probably the most godawful stuff you ever smelled but Mom didn't let on.  She smiled as she opened the bottle and applied a little to her skin.  Even Dad commented on how good she smelled. She was happy.
     It was about that time in my life that I was allowed to join the Cub Scouts.  I went about being a Cub Scout with great diligence.  I went from Tiger Cub to Wolves to Bears and Webelos and along the way I accumulated a mass of gold and silver arrowheads as I completed the required task for each.
     Mom was the one who went to my pack meetings.  She was the one who stood beside me as I received my awards.  She was the one who made sure my patches were sewn to my shirt.  I think she was happy then- her firstborn was growing up.
     My formative years were spent in Mom's shadow.  Pat and I were her helpers.  We were taught to wash and iron clothes, peel, cook and mash potatoes, and make toast or pancakes.  I still had my days where a good whipping spoiled the whole thing but Mom was always there and I couldn't be mad at her for long.
      When we lived in Mt. Juliet there was a house up the hill that had burned to the ground and was abandoned.  Mom wanted to spruce up our home so she and I would walk up the road pulling a red Radio Flyer wagon that we used to haul back 5 or 6 concrete blocks. We used them to line both sides of the driveway and then we filled the cavity with dirt and Mom  planted flowers. The whole thing cost only time and a little work but she was proud of those flowers.
     I started working when I was 13.  We still lived in Mt Juliet and I rode to work with Dad on the weekends and holidays. - Mom liked to fish though she didn't often get the chance to go but come Mother's Day I took her fishing.  On the way home from work the night before Mother's Day Dad would stop so I could get Mom a one day fishing permit and two dozen crappie minnows.  Early the next morning Mom and I would walk to the creek and fish till the minnows were gone. This went on till I left for the Navy.  When I got back home we started up again for a few years. She was a lot of fun on those trips and she would tell anyone who would listen how many fish we caught.
     Linda and I left Tennessee in the late 1970's.  Our visits home were short and usually too far between but Mom was always happy to see us. Between visits we would have Mom come to visit us. Once in Florida we took her Disney World and to the beach.  She was like a little kid at Disney World and we seemed to enjoy watching her more than the exhibits. We always enjoyed her visits but like most people we were glad when it was time for her to go.
     To get back to the question - was Mom ever happy?  Yes, there was once a twinkle in her eye, a smile on her face and pride in her family.  I remember her laughter.  I have photos of Mom when she was young and in these I see there was once a young girl with dreams of being swept off her feet by prince charming and living in a fairy tale world - her future filled with the promise of wealth and happiness - days of sunshine and warm gentle breezes.
      Reality is not a dream.  You can't wish upon the first star you see at night and expect the wish to come true. Why she went sour on life I don't know.  Maybe she had a chemical imbalance from her medications, maybe she was slipping into the depths depression or senilty.  What ever the reason,  I lost a mother and my sons lost a grandmother years before she died.
     I loved my mother simply because she was Mom.  She wasn't always unhappy and she did love us.
    

    

It's A Small World After All

    



                               It's A Small World After All




     Some times to put things into their proper perspective it is necessary to go back to the past or at least to a place that holds the portal to the past.
     Lil' sister Vickie has been after me to visit our cousins in Kentucky, Madeline Ruth and Tommy Navarro. They are my Grandmother Wades nieces so that makes them my second cousins. As kids we saw each other often when visiting Granny and Grandpa Wade and in many respects we grew up together. At one time Madeline Ruth and I road the back seat of Grandpa's Hudson automobile to Missouri.  Great Aunt May ( Grandpa's sister) was in the back seat with us and Elmer the family Cocker Spaniel was panting away on the deck under the rear window.
     Madeline Ruth is seriously into tracking down the roots to the family.  She has visited archives, libraries and graveyards in two states and, while I don't think it was necessary, Vickie has encouraged her. Together they have roamed several ancient burial plots within about a 150 mile radius of Smiths Grove, Kentucky.  In the process they have uncovered the grave sites of ancestors long forgotten and lost in the passage of time. Madeline Ruth's diligence has opened new chapters in the history of our ancestors and we now have new stories to pass on to future generations.
     While visiting with Madeline Ruth I took her to an appointment in Nashville, Tn. and afterwards  we went to the Mt Olivet Cemetery hoping to find the graves of two of our great, great ancestors who were buried there around 1824. The staff at Mt. Olivet were very helpful and provided us with detailed maps and directions. The burial sites were in one of the oldest parts and after much searching we found tombstones belonging to people all around but never found the markers for our relatives.  If there ever was a marker it long ago disappeared - almost two hundred years have passed. Instead of a picture of a worn moss covered gravestone we settled for a picture of the neatly mowed grass covering the general area of the burial plot - sorry,  Madeline.
     As we left the cemetery I turned right towards Donelson, Tn. where I lived and grew up as a young boy.  I wanted to see what changes have taken place since last I was there. Along the way I pointed out the location of Shady Lawn which was a road house Dad used to frequent. The building is gone but somehow I new where it used to be. Once we got into Donelson I pointed out the the buildings that once housed C&S Foods where Dad and I worked, Logans Grocery where Dad once worked is now a CVS and the site of the first fast food restaurant in Donelson ( Burger Chef , surprisingly Linda can still sing the jingle from the advertising logo ).
     I turned on to Donelson Pike and drove past the elementary school where I, Pat, and Clint learned our ABC's.  It's now a senior center. Clint and Judy attend plays there.  The building looks the same and maybe next time I will stop and see if the wooden floors have the same smell held deep in my memory.
     I drove on down the road looking for Colonial Circle.  It didn't take long to realize I had gone too.  far and had to turn around.   Then I wound up passing the house we lived in because I remembered the street to be longer, the hill to be steeper. When I found the house I saw there were changes - an addition to the right side, a carport to the left side.  Those things were expected as it was a small house to begin with.  I wanted to stop and see if the large hackberry tree in the back yard was still there and how big it is now... maybe another time.
     The thing that struck me as odd was that the rise from our house to the one next door was only about two or three feet high.  I distinctly remember it being twice as high.  We used to play king of the hill and roll down it. The street had a slight rise starting in front of the house and I remember having to pedal hard on my bicycle to get over it. The street itself is shorter than I remember.  In reality, from the house to the school is no more than 1/2 mile.  I guess when you are eight or nine years old and walking to school it was probably two miles long.
     This got me to thinking about visiting Grandpa Riggan's farm and looking for the "LARGE" cedar and oak trees that you drove between when entering his yard.  I used to play among the roots of the oak tree. The trees are still there but they are not as big as I remembered.
    Seen thru the eyes of a child I am a giant and the world is a vast and wondrous place. When you  delve into the depths of the past you should have a young child along with you to remind you of how big the world as you knew it really was because as you get older you realize that not only is life short but the world you remember was not really that big a place after all.

     I enjoyed my visit with Madeline Ruth- even the walk thru Mt. Olivet.  I particularly enjoyed her family and feel bad that it was so long since we last saw each other.  I liked talking about the past with her and hearing of the things she found out about our relations.  It makes me more enthusiastic about writing in my blog.
     Thanks,  Madeline Ruth.  I'll try to get back for another visit before another thirty years goes by.
    

Tuesday, November 6, 2012

Southern Fried




                        Southern Fried





         Growing up in the 1950's wasn't much different than growing up ten or twenty years earlier. Many people still used out houses, drank water drawn by the bucket full from deep wells, took baths in wash tubs and cooked on wood burning stoves. Kids ran around barefoot in the summer and always had a runny nose in the winter.
      Medical science was progressing but lagged behind in many areas. Childhood diseases like chicken pox, measles, and mumps were still around, as was polio. People died from heart attacks and cancer but no one seemed to know why. Smoking was widely advertised as a good thing recommended by doctors and cholesterol was not yet a word.
     Mom was a good cook as was her mother before her.  Time tested recipes were handed down from mother to daughter.  Staples at our house were mashed potatoes, Navy beans and cornbread - and if we could get it, maybe a roast or a ham hock cooked with the beans.  Real stick to your ribs kind of food.
     I have often heard that it wasn't the cook but the ingredients that made the food taste good - but think about that for a minute. In the 1950's and 60's every housewife had a gallon can of lard in their cupboard.  Crisco was the most famous of the brands. Lard was used to make biscuits, pie crust, cornbread, fry fish or potatoes - the many uses for lard constitutes a long list. If you didn't use lard you used butter, real butter, none of this salt free easy to spread stuff we have today. No one threw away the empty lard can you set it on the stove and poured the cooking grease from the pan in to it, you see lard was a re-usable commodity and when mixed with a little bacon grease some foods were made more tasty. Mom could go thru two gallon cans of Crisco in a week not counting what she dipped from the used can on the stove.
    In the 50's there was no such thing as diet cola, sugar free food, salt free or gluten free food. Everything was fried and in our case it was "SOUTHERN FRIED". Dad was a butcher and every steak had a nice edge of fat around the outside and when Dad finished a steak there was only the bone left.  A little marbling of fat in a roast made for a better roast. Ever eat Red Eye Gravy?  It is the grease from frying country ham in a cast iron skillet. Some would mix a little flour with the grease to give it consistency and the last thing you do would be to wipe the gravy off your plate with a hot biscuit and eat it. Green beans were often cooked with strips of bacon to add flavor.  It was delicious and you didn't mind the little grease from the bacon that floated in the juice.
    Granny Wade would cook cabbage, another one of those things that smelled when cooked.  She would cook corned beef with the cabbage. Mom on occasion would make sauerkraut with pieces of hot dogs - it was tolerable but I never did acquire a taste for cabbage.
     Farmers still killed hogs in the fall and made their own country hams and sausage.  The sausage was stuffed in the hogs intestines for a casing and when fried in a cast iron skillet it was delicious. Chitlins are fried hog intestines and considered a delicacy by many country folk.  I could never get past the smell.
     Granny Riggan never, as far I know, cooked on anything but a wood stove. She did a pretty good job and again most things were fried and there was always a can of lard nearby. One of the things I remember about Grandpa Riggan was his breakfast.  After eating two fried eggs and some bacon or sausage he would slice off a pat of butter and place it in the middle of his plate then pour some Br'er Rabbit sorghum on the butter and mix it into a paste with his knife. He would slice open a hot biscuit and spread the mixture on the biscuit and eat it. I have a jar of sorghum in the cabinet now.
     Dad had it in his head that he was a good cook and I will say he could cook a steak or fry fish on a grill but I was never happy with his skills on a stove. Anything he cooked on a stove was fried.  He used to cook liver but it turned out with the texture of a hockey puck and his steaks were either overcooked or running red with blood they were so rare. He had a specialty he called goulash it was a concoction of fried ground beef, stewed tomatoes, onions and, I think, green peppers and noodles. He would start by frying up the ground beef and when it reached the right texture he would pour in the other ingredients and continue cooking until ready to eat. Did I say that he never poured off the grease from the beef?  He just added a little water. One of the worst whippings I ever had was when I turned up my nose at a plate full of his goulash.
     People today eat a lot of fast food and I have to admit I have consumed more than my share.  But walking into a Burger King or Wendy's is not the same as eating at a local, family owned, "greasy spoon ". The smell is different as is the taste of the food. Back in the early sixties, one of my favorite places to eat when I worked at the grocery store, was the Woolworth's lunch counter.  After gulping down a burger and fries I would top it off with a banana split. They had balloons hanging above the counter with different prices in them, you choose one and paid the price inside for the banana split, anywhere from one cent to forty nine cents.
     Dad had a customer by the name of Daisy.  She was loud, flirty and fun.  She also owned a greasy spoon restaurant about a quarter mile from the store. She served home style cooking to a hungry lunch crowd. I always sat at the counter rather than a booth. At the counter I could watch the short order cook frying hamburgers and piling them on a plate until they were needed. I can't remember the cooks name, he was a black guy that talked to me as he cooked.  Every now and then the plate of burgers would get so high that one would slide off on to the floor where he would pick it up, brush the dirt off, and put it back on the plate, all the while looking to see if anyone saw what happened. I always made sure I got a fresh one hot off the grill.
    Over the years medical science has made many advances.  Polio has been all but eradicated, vaccines control mumps, measles and chicken pox, cures for many cancers have been found -  or are close. Smoking has been determined to be the leading cause for lung cancer and high levels of cholesterol are major contributors for heart disease. At one time eggs were good for you and then they were bad for you and now they are good for you again. Cooking with lard is down because vegetable oil and peanut oil is better. Sugar and salt are bad if consumed in great quantities so we now have foods that are sugar free, fat free, gluten free, caffeine free, low cholesterol and organic. For all of these advances kids have ADD  or OCD and allergies for everything. Remarkably every one in the world should not have a cholesterol level higher than 200 and if you are over the age of fifty you are probably taking one kind of pill or another to combat clogged arteries. By the way, there was a report on CNN the other day that doctors have determined organic food is no better for you than non-organic - just more costly.
     I was a picky eater with a definite sweet tooth and I survived "Southern Cooking" as did my siblings, parents, grandparents and forefathers. I never knew what an allergy was until sometime in the 80's and never had a cholesterol problem until the last couple of years ( it's not that bad ). Cancer had a hold on Mom's siblings and they all died of one kind or another, Mom was the only one to have lung cancer - twice -and she lived into her late 70's.   Prior to that all of our ancestors lived to ripe old ages in their late 70's, 80's and even 90's. If there was any heart problems it didn't show up until real late in life.
    I am not advocating going back to using Crisco lard but I do think modern medicine has taken some of the fun out of life and definitely flavor out of food in their effort to extend life. Linda has a heart condition and diabetes, her pill intake on a daily basis could constitute a meal on their own. For myself, except for a slightly elevated cholesterol level, I'm OK - but my doctor says I stand a chance of having a heart attack if I don't start taking cholesterol pills. After watching Dad pass away with cancer a heart attack seems to me to be more merciful.
    What I wouldn't give for an old greasy spoon restaurant hamburger and fries. Who wants to live to be 150 anyway !
     
    
    

Wednesday, October 31, 2012

Happy Holidays




                                                          Happy Holidays


     Whatever the reason birthdays in our house were no big deal.  I know that I had a birthday party somewhere along the line but to be honest I can't remember when it was - no card, no gift and no day off - the lawn still needed mowing, the potatoes still needed peeling.
      I wasn't the only one without a birthday party. Linda was shocked when she asked Mom what she was going to do for Ronnie's birthday when he turned 9 or 10 and Mom said, "nothing."  Ronnie was probably the only one of us to get a birthday cake that year - after Linda made it.
      Not only did we not celebrate birthdays, we didn't celebrate Mom and Dad's anniversary or any legal holiday unless Dad got time off. This was a sore point for Linda as I never seemed to remember the occasions that meant so much to her.  I try but still drop the ball from time to time.
     There were two holidays that were religiously honored by the Riggan family - Thanksgiving and Christmas.  Dad was always big on family and these were family holidays.
     Thanksgiving was always celebrated at the grandparents.  Fortunately they lived close to each other so we made Thanksgiving lunch with the Riggan side and dinner with the Wade side.  Granny Riggan cooked chicken and Granny Wade cooked turkey (Granny Riggan was more adapt at wringing the necks of chickens ). Later, after Grandpa Riggan passed on, the events were held at Granny and Grandpa Wade's until Granny got smart enough to let Aunt Addie have Thanksgiving at her house.
     Thanksgiving was great as you got to see all of the aunts, uncles and cousins on both sides of the family. The kids ran around and screamed like banshees.  The food was plentiful and we ate like there was no tomorrow.  Fried chicken, turkey, mashed potatoes, green beans or peas, sweet potato pie with marshmellows on top ( I was never keen on sweet potatoes but I loved marshmellows ), cakes, pies and three flavors of ice-cream - for a kid, this was heaven.
     Preparation of the meal was left to the women.  The men of the Riggan family talked on all kinds of subjects and slipped outside and had a snort out of sight of Granny and Pa.  Us boys ran around screaming and hollering getting into all kinds of mischief.  The girl cousins were older and they went off by themselves talking about what ever girls talk about.
     The Wade meal was served later in the afternoon.  Digestion had not kicked in from the feed at Granny Riggans' but we kids seemed to find room for more food.  Grandpa swore we had hollow legs.
     The men of the Wade side were more sports minded and Grandpa usually found a ball game on the little 19in black and white TV. The women gathered with Granny in the kitchen to help with the food and later the clean up, all the while cackling away like the old hens the men folk said they were.
     When we were younger the play time was all fun and games but as we got older we tried to fit in with the adults, but I was not into sports so other avenues were explored.
     One year when I was a teenager we went to Granny and Pa Wades. They lived out on the Bethpage Hwy on a small farm.   Everyone showed up, even Uncle Roy (better known as Uncle RC) and Aunt Jean from California.  Uncle John  (better know as Uncle AJ ) and Aunt Sammy drove up in a VW Beetle.
     Now this was a long time ago and try as I might I can't remember all of the players involved.  I do know that I, brother Pat and at least one or two cousins were feeling kind of mischievous that day. Uncle AJ had parked his VW in the driveway appropriately along side of two trees which happened to inspire us to pull a prank.  It took some doing but we picked up on the rear bumper and dragged it to the side then picked up the front of the car and moved it to the side. After several minutes of dragging the car this way and that we finally had it positioned between the two trees and there was no way it was going to be driven out.
     Uncle AJ was pretty good about the joke and everyone got a good laugh -  we didn't even mind dragging the front end around so the car could be driven out.
     As Granny and Pa Wade got older the Thanksgivings were moved to Aunt Addie and Uncle Harold's house in Hendersonville. The house was an old colonial home built back in the 1800's that Uncle Harold had restored,  and it was large enough to accommodate the whole family which had enlarged due to marriages and births. The location didn't seem to matter - this was a family gathering and everyone enjoyed themselves.
    Christmas was the holiday of choice, especially for us kids - Santa Claus, presents, candy canes and toys. This was the one time each year when everybody was happy.  I can't remember a bad
Christmas.
   There was an unwritten law that Christmas Eve was spent at home.  Christmas Day we went to the Grandparents but Christmas Eve was at home. 
     Christmas was the one holiday that had a build up that started back around September.  The anticipation gained momentum daily until the morning of Christmas Eve. By this time Mom was ready for Santa Clause to arrive but the game had to be played out.
     After months of looking at the Sears catalog toy section and showing Mom and Dad the pictures and describing what each toy could do and why we had to have it Mom and Dad were exhausted. We kids were so hyped up on anticipation we didn't need sugar but we sneaked a piece of candy anyway.
    Christmas Eve started with Mom getting the house ready because there would always be extra guests to stop by later on. Then she would start cooking - not that we wanted to eat - what we wanted was to open " just one " of the presents under the tree. We spent the entire day around the Christmas tree which had some presents under it.  We tried to guess what was in each of the brightly wrapped gifts.  Somewhere around 6:00 or later Dad would show up,  preceded or followed by friends or co-workers, some who brought gifts or at least fruit or candy.
     Dad was a sucker for Christmas.  He could no more wait for Christmas Day than us kids. Later in the evening we were told we had to go to bed.  Santa Claus wouldn't come if we weren't asleep - what 7 or 8 year old kid was going to sleep on Christmas Eve?  As we lay quietly in our beds wide awake but pretending to be asleep, we could hear noises in the attic.  Soon Dad would come in and wake us up because Santa Claus had been there and left all kinds of great stuff.  How Santa got those toys in the attic was a mystery as we had no chimney or outside attic access.  Dad said it was Santa's magic.  I quickly discovered that Santa started storing toys in our attic way before Christmas but the question remained - how did he get in the attic?
     Sometimes Dad would take us for a ride to see the Christmas lights in the neighborhood and when we got back Mom would be there telling us that we had just missed Santa.  Sure enough there were all kinds of toys and gifts. Thank goodness Mom was there to let Santa in the house.
     At this point the Genie was out of the lamp and no way was he going back in.  The sugar canes, cookies and anticipation had reached a peak and we were awake for the night. Wrapping paper, ribbons, bows and name tags were everywhere, the crescendo of noise was deafening but this was Christmas.  One year, when we lived on Colonial Circle, Granny and Grandpa Wade came to visit on Christmas Eve.  I was probably 8 yrs old.  Several gifts were in large boxes and after everything had been opened we played with the toys and the boxes.  Grandpa watched and was amazed to the point that he said, "hell, if I had known how much fun those boxes were going to be I could have saved myself a lot of money ". It was not important that we didn't always get what we wanted.  By the time Christmas morning rolled around we were thrilled with what we got and couldn't wait to show off to our friends.
    Dad was always the one who couldn't wait to see the expressions on our faces when we walked into the living room after Santa had come.  The little kid in him would come out as he helped us assemble, figure out how to operate and then play with the toys. Many times it would be after midnight and we kids would still be going strong but Dad would poop out and leave Mom to stay up with us until one by one we couldn't hold our eyes open any more.  This was somewhere around 3-4 in the morning.  As Pat and I got older we would be the baby sitters so Mom could get some rest also.
     Christmas morning started the whole show over again as we loaded up and headed for Granny and Grandpa Riggans' house.  More anticipation, cookies, candy and presents.  Later we would cross the raging Cumberland river on a rickety old ferry and visit Granny and Pa  Wade.  More anticipation, cookies, candy and presents.  Oh, and don't forget the Aunts, Uncles and Cousins.  I realized years later why many adults would say, "thank goodness Christmas only comes once a year ".
     Brother Pat and I are only 15 months apart in age and we usually got the same major gifts from Santa.  One year we each got BB-guns, another we got 3 speed English racer bicycles, and when money was tight we shared the gift like when we were teens and got a Philco radio which we listened to all night.
     Christmas continued on in the same manner for many years - then we kids got older, Grandpa Riggan passed away and the Riggan clan seemed to venture down different paths. We still visited Granny and Grandpa Wade but the Christmas Eve tradition at Mom and Dad's house was the highlight of the season. The family expanded as we kids got married and started to have kids of our own but all of that didn't matter as Mom expected us to start arriving by 6:00 - come hungry,  and friends were welcome.
    The Christmas Eve's spent at 301 Jacksonian Drive  were some of the most memorable.  Just imagine Mom and Dad, five adult kids and spouses, as many as four grand kids, a couple of neighbors, friends and co-workers all gathered into a small house.  Add to this the smoke from 7-10 people smoking pipes and cigarettes.  Finally the time would come to open the gifts,.  Imagine everyone in Mom's small living room opening presents.  There would be ribbons, bows and wrapping  paper two feet thick on the floor but that too was a part of the tradition, as was Dad passing out the gifts and helping the little ones to figure out their toys.
    We of the Riggan family may not be all that great about remembering birthdays and anniversaries but few families could hold a candle to our Christmas Eve gatherings. It was nice to have a night where everyone was happy to see you and only good things were said and at the end of the night you went home with a smile on your face. We were always a Norman Rockwell style family full of goodwill, cheer, love and togetherness .
    Linda and I left Nashville in 1978,  Dad died in 1985, Christmas Eve was never really the same after that.  But the tradition carried on no matter where we lived.  Linda grew up with a different tradition of opening gifts on Christmas morning but the spirit soon got to her.  Even when it was just the two of us we opened gifts on Christmas Eve and I would save the one biggy gift for last. When our boys came along the tradition continued as it had for many years. Christmas Eve was spent at home.
    Today our boys have their own families and friends.  They still come over on Christmas Eve but we are slowly becoming the grandparents to be visited on Christmas Day. The spirits of Christmas 's Past are many and as time passes they seem to run together in my mind - but they linger.  Still, I can't remember all of them, but neither can I remember a bad one.
    That twinkle in my eye this Christmas will be for my first grandchild (a Granddaughter),  due December 22, 2012.  I am looking forward to meeting her and passing the Christmas Eve traditions to my son.


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     This Christmas turned out to be a mixture of feelings both good and not so good. About the tenth or eleventh of December, 2012 Linda was rushed to the hospital where she was placed on a ventilator, her congestive heart failure had risen up with a vengeance and she almost died that night. After three days the ventilator was removed but she needed bypass surgery but they also needed her heart to be stronger so they kept her in the hospital. 
     On December 15th MJ was born in a hospital a couple miles away, Linda was unable to get to her hospital. When Marie was released to go home the nurses who attended to Linda talked the doctor into letting Linda meet her new granddaughter in the lobby downstairs. 
     Linda wound up having her operation, it was risky and she stood a good chance of not pulling through.  Christmas and New Years was spent in the hospital, it was mid January before she could come home.

    
    

Wednesday, October 10, 2012

The Wind and The Darkness


                                          

                                          The Wind and The Darkness





     I have always enjoyed being on or around the water.  Coming from Tennessee the only water I was familiar with was Old Hickory Lake.  My first two years in the Navy were spent at Patrick AFB in Florida.  There I tasted salt water for the first time if only to swim in it.
     The last twenty months  of my enlistment were spent on the ocean either on board a ship or on a Mike boat.  I became familiar with the many faces of the sea - from calm gently rolling swells that would rock you to sleep, to monsoon storms so rough you would be tossed out of your bunk. There were times when I would look up and see nothing but water all around, even overhead, and times when I would be mesmerized by the sun glaring off the calm surface. The sea has it's own smells too - fishy odors close to shore, clear and cleansing out of sight of land.  It's colors are the clear blue green of deep water and the angry gray of storm-tossed waves.
     All of us had respect for the sea, we operated in all kinds of conditions.  Some of us looked into the depths reflecting on our problems to put them in their proper place.  I used to go on the flight deck at night and lay in the safety netting surrounding the deck, hanging over the side of the ship with nothing beneath but the darkness of the sea.  Even with the stars shinning the nights were black, we had black out conditions aboard ship at night.  The wind always blew because the ship was underway.  On a black night it was as if you were in a void - all thought replaced by the wind and the rocking of the ship as she rode the swells taking you into another world.  For a short time the war and all your worries were far away, for me the sea was refreshing and invigorating like a good nights sleep.
     We were never more that a few miles from shore.  In the daytime the jungles were clear, green and inviting, at night they were dark, lifeless and at best a shadow in the ambient light of the stars.
     Laying in the safety netting looking towards shore I watched red tracer rounds arc thru the darkened sky, crossing from mountain top to mountain top.  It was like a light show only all of the lights were red.  There was no sound or smell of cordite only the wind. Tracer rounds were spit out about every fifth round and at night it appeared as though a seamstress were stitching the darkness with red thread.
     At first the sight of the tracers was interesting in that I had never seen anything like it but then I wondered about the guys pulling the trigger. Were they alone, did they have hot chow that night and when would they see clean sheets again, how many more days til they rotated stateside, were they scared and what was going thru their mind. Up until then my war experiences were limited to the old movies on TV where the good guys always won and the enemy perished by the hundreds, but this was Vietnam, John Wayne was in Hollywood and the good guys were dying.
     One night several of us watched as an ammo dump exploded miles away down the coast.  It was like the final act of a fireworks display where they shoot off bunches of rockets at one time. Red tracers and flashes of large explosions illuminated the darkness for hours - we were in awe of the sight. The reality that this was war couldn't sink in as the sounds and smells were not there. Then just as in the movies the screen faded to black as the ship came about and the stern now faced out to sea. The wind and the darkness engulfed us as we wandered back to our compartment and told the guys " wow you should have seen the ammo dump go up ".
     Just a few miles away men were fighting and dying in the black of night. Fighting the enemy and the darkness of their own mind. This was something I knew nothing about and could only imagine. All I could do was watch red tracers as they crossed the night sky.

Sunday, October 7, 2012

Remember The Alamo



               


     One of the first ships our group served aboard in Vietnam was the LPD USS Alamo. The Alamo was a newer amphibious assault ship.  Not only did it carry Marines their equipment and our boats it also had a flight deck for helicopters. Being a newer ship they seemed to have the best of everything.
     One of the great things about the Navy was the chow.  They had great cooks and I guess the only thing I could fault them on was the powdered milk and eggs, powered food isn't natural.  It was years before I would eat eggs again and milk never tasted the same so I eventually gave it up.
     On the Alamo we could count on two sure things the first of which was that the chef's surprise was fried chicken. A lot of fried chicken, once in a while we were served something that looked like fried chicken that one of the guys said was rabbit but it tasted like chicken. When I got home I told my wife not to cook me chicken again. Only in the last few years have I begun to eat chicken breast -  but not fried.
     As for the other certainty, movies were a big deal aboard ship but there were times when new movies couldn't be had so watching a rerun was inevitable. The Alamo had a remedy for reruns.
     The story was that when the Alamo entered service the actor John Wayne presented the ship with it's very own copy of his majestic movie, " The Alamo ". I had never seen this particular movie until then but by the time I got off the ship a few months later I was damned tired of it. I swear the Alamo was shown every week.
     The Alamo showed movies on the mess deck which was a large space for feeding all of the troops and ships company. They dropped a screen down in the middle of the mess deck and turned out the lights. When you got tired of watching the movie as made you could go around and watch it from the other side of the screen. The sound was the same but the characters were now reversed. It was different.
     One Saturday the ship pulled into Da Nang harbor and dropped anchor. On this particular Saturday the captain decided the crew needed a day off so he loaded up the crew, beer and a picnic lunch  for a day of softball on shore. Three of our boats were used to ferry everyone to shore, my boat was left behind in case a boat was needed for whatever reason.  I was left as boat coxswain, I had driven the boat several times but always with the senior petty officer close by.  It was a lazy day and it was doubtful we would be needed.
      We were tied up along side the ship soaking up the sun when this four stripper ( captain ) came down the Jacobs ladder. The captain walked up to me and said he needed a ride to his ship about a mile away.  It was a troop ship.  I had the engines lighted off and away we went.
     Coming along side of a ship in a Mike boat is really kind of simple.  Having twin screws enables you to actually walk the boat sideways. I had performed this maneuver several times but not yet perfected it.
      When we came along side the captain's ship I started maneuvering the boat into position with the captain  standing next to me. WHAM !   My boat slammed into the ships gangway ( new gangway ). WHAM !  I hit it again.  It would be hard to bust an E-3 seaman but I felt as if the captain was figuring how to go about it. The third time was a charm and all the time the captain never said a word.  When at last I held the boat in position the captain looked at me and asked if I had been driving the boat for long.  I told him this was my first time alone he said, "you'll learn"  then stepped off on to his freshly dented gangway.

Tuesday, October 2, 2012

The Lighter Side Of War




                 


     The members of of ACDIV 13 had a fun side, the ships we were stationed on used us for a lot of different jobs. Some times we were used to ferry people and things around, we picked up supplies in Da Nang Harbor every week and at times were sent out so the ship could make repairs to the well deck. Having nothing to do created boredom and you know about idle hands being the devil's workshop.


                                                              Nicotine Fit


     We had several characters among us who were unforgettable. There was this one guy from somewhere around New York, his heritage was Polish and I couldn't even begin to spell his name, maybe that's why we called him Ski.
      Ski was a nice guy and fun to be around, he only had one problem. Ski was a mooch when it came to cigarettes.  He never had any of his own except for those he got from the C- ration boxes and they were 20-25 yrs old. He didn't seem to mind what brand he smoked as we all smoked different brands and he bummed off all of us. Most times Ski would just walk up join in the conversation you were having, pull your pack of smokes from your pocket and pull out a cigarette then put the pack back in your pocket, he was very considerate. When we played cards in our compartment we usually had our packs and lighters ( oh, he didn't own a lighter either ) laying in front of us. Ski would reach over pull out a cigarette as he talked and never broke his train of thought.
     We all just sort of took Ski as he was.  He was a nice guy and cigarettes were about .15 per pack, no big deal. After a while though some things get under your skin and become an irritation. It took a while but Ski finally got the better of one of the guys as we were playing cards one night. It was payday, a day when you drew your pay, settled your debts and replenished your personal supplies - all in that order.
     So here we are playing poker in our quarters and Ski is in the game. A good hour or so has gone by and Ski has smoked 4-5 cigarettes by now when he reaches over and pulls another from a pack belonging to one of the petty officers. I guess this petty officer was losing or something but he slapped Ski's hand and said no. Ski was shocked and asked "what the hell". The petty officer asked Ski if he got paid that day and Ski said yes, then he was asked why he hadn't bought any cigarettes and for that Ski had no answer. The petty officer told Ski he was tired of keeping him supplied with smokes. Ski said he was sorry and he would get cigarettes the next day then he reached for a cigarette from some one else's pack and they promptly smacked his hand. Ski went without a cigarette for the rest of the night as no one would give him one.
     The next day when we came back to the compartment from lunch we were surprised to find a carton of cigarettes on every body's bunk - the brand they smoked. As usual we sat down to play a little lunch time poker. Ski was in the game, he promptly reached over and pulled a cigarette from someone's pack. Seems as though after buying about 15 cartons of cigarettes Ski forgot to buy any for himself, but he was a nice guy.


                                                       Prohibition


     Once a week the ship would drop anchor in Da Nang harbor to pick up supplies. The most obvious thing to do would be to send one of our boats, sometimes two, as they are big enough to carry whatever was needed. So off we would go up a river to what was called the beach ramp.
     This was a place that the marines had set up as an ammo dump and it had a ramp going into the water for loading boats. We would pull up and drop our ramp and wait for whatever we had to pick up even if it took all day (which it usually did) - remember what I said about idle hands.
     Turns out the beach ramp was about 3 miles from China Beach which was an in-country R&R site.  They had all kinds of recreational facilities but most of all they had booze.
     There were several problems getting the booze :
                     1. We didn't have transportation.
                     2. We didn't have ration cards, beer for enlisted men, liquor for officers.
                     3. We didn't have the right kind of money.
                     4. Who would go get the booze.
     Problem #1 was simple - hitchhike, problems #2&3 had us scratching our heads.  Problem #4 was simple enough, some one just needed the balls to go for it.
    We had among us a new recruit we affectionately called Wildman.  We called him that because he was always doing wild and crazy things. Once the above problems were explained to Wildman, we gave him a collection of about $30 and sent him on his way. Wildman walked out to the highway, stuck out his thumb and quickly obtained a ride in a passing jeep.
     About 4 hours later, a Marine six-by truck ( about the size of a dump truck - all wheel drive )backed on to the boat and out pops Wildman. He climbed into the back and shouted to form a line then commenced handing down three cases of beer, a quart of Canadian Club and a quart of Crown Royal, plus he gave us back some change. Wildman was our go to man from then on.
     In the process of passing the booze the Canadian Club was dropped on the deck, miraculously  it landed on it's bottom and only broke off the neck. Our quick thinking 2nd class engine man carefully picked up the broken bottle and placed a greasy rag from around his neck over a small bucket that had been quickly rinsed with river water ( you don't want to know about the river ) and strained the booze into the bucket. His quick thinking saved one of us from swallowing a piece of glass.
     We never asked Wildman how he managed to pull off such a feat, we just toasted him with a drink and started saving our money for next time.
     One of the fine points about being able to obtain booze was the resale value.  Aboard ship a six pack which cost us a couple of bucks would sell for close to $10.  Problem was that some of the guys who bought the beer had a problem keeping it under raps and had to stand Captains Mast. The ship knew we were bringing the booze aboard and searched our boats whenever we returned to the ship.  We were never caught.


                                                        Speaking Of Beer

     One of life's lessons that I learned early on was that the thing you want most usually is unobtainable - nowhere to be found. Another lesson was, "don't look a gift horse in the mouth ".
     The antics we went thru to get our hands on booze were just as described in the last story.  It wasn't that we were addicted to booze and had to have it to survive. We didn't have any but wanted it more because we didn't have any. Any of this make any sense?
     We were young sailors in a far away land or rather floating around in a far off ocean with very little to do. A cold beer would not only quench a raging thirst it would soothe the beast brought on by the heat, boredom, and monotony of waiting for something to happen.
     We had recently completed one of our two amphibious landings and were floating around waiting for orders on our next task of the day. We were told to marry up with another Mike 8 and come into the well deck. Great, done for the day, now we can go into our compartment and play cards the rest of the day. This was not to be as the Marines ashore required more cargo.
     Boy did we get the surprise of our life when forklifts started loading pallets of beer on our boat - bunches of beer. We were loaded two pallets high, five pallets across and about fifteen pallets deep on each boat. Let's see, that is 24 cans per case x 25 cases per pallet  x 150 pallets  =  a lot of beer!
     One disturbing fact was that here we were conniving and scheming to make sure our boat was the one to go to the beach ramp every week so we could buy booze and now we find out the ship is using it for ballast.
     To get back to the problem at hand - no way could a battalion of Marines drink all of the beer we had on our boat and surely we were deserving of a small delivery fee. We figured that no one would miss a couple of pallets that just happened to get knocked overboard by a rogue wave.  (Rogue waves were not known back then so we just said that a wave came out of nowhere and hit us when we were not looking)  - wham!  Two pallets were washed overboard.  Fifty cases of beer were a lot to hide but they say necessity is the mother of all invention and where there is a will there is a way.
     The Mike 8 is a well constructed boat.  It's designers thought of ever possible situation that could hinder the boat from making it to the beach with it's load. Beneath the well deck were five voids that ran across the boat from side to side, a man could duck walk in them. The idea was that if a void was punctured only it would take on water and the boat would continue to float.  Seems like we could flood three of the voids and still remain afloat.  Each void had an inspection plate on either side of the well deck and each round plate was big enough for a man to enter the void, but the plates were secured by about 80 - 3/4 inch bolts torqued to 150 ft lbs.
     Fortunately we kept nuts on one of the plates a little tighter than hand tight for just such an occasion - in no time at all fifty cases of beer washed overboard right into the void.
     The Marines must have been ticked about the missing beer because there was an inspection when we came aboard that night. An officer and a Chief Boatswain mate searched our bilges and storage compartment and came up empty.
     The lesson to be learned here is not to underestimate the resourcefulness of a thirsty sailor.



                                                                 Mail Call


     My Dad once told me of how they would screw around with the new guys aboard ship.  They would tell him he could write a letter home and mail it while in the middle of the ocean.  When the recruit inquired as to how this was possible they explained that he would have to be on deck at some odd hour of the night as the ship would be passing a mail buoy and he could drop his letter in it and the next ship heading in the opposite direction would retrieve the mail and take it stateside. Not everyone was gullible enough to fall for the trick but several stood on the deck in the cold or rain  or both for hours. It was sort of a rite of passage - first time at sea.
     The best part of a serviceman's day was always "mail call".  Not everyone got mail every day but everyone looked forward to hearing their name called when the mail was handed out. Sometimes it was almost as much fun to see what the other guys received.
     The girlfriend of one guy had put his name in the local paper back home and told the whole town that he was overseas and lonely, please write to him. This guy got mail every day and loads of it mostly from people he didn't know.  He got love letters ( some were quite racy ), he got magazines of all kinds, newspapers, etc.
      Then some guys got gifts - cookies, salami, cheeses and sausages.  If we'd had an oven we could have made a pizza.
      Linda would send me packages of grape kool aid and popsrite popcorn. The kool aid we would mix with the water in our igloo cooler - when you couldn't drink beer grape kool aid was the next best thing - beat the hell out of plain water.
     Popsrite popcorn came in a flat aluminum pan with a wire handle.  You had to remove a paper cover and then set the pan on a hot stove.  Soon the popcorn would start popping and the aluminum cover would start to rise and form a round dome as it filled with hot popcorn.  When all of the popcorn popped you just tore open the dome and started eating. There was just one problem - we didn't have access to a stove hot or cold.
     Not having a stove was an opportunity to improvise and we excelled in that area. The Marines had heat tablets issued to them for warming their C-rations. Heat tablets were basically Sterno in tablet form - use enough and you could boil water quickly. This though presented another problem, open flames were not allowed aboard ship.
     During daylight hours cooking the popcorn was not an issue when we were out of the ship on our boats, a five gallon bucket with some busted pallet wood and a pint of diesel fuel to get it started, but after hours cooking presented problems as the Captain frowned on seeing his ship afire.
     Thru experimentation we found that the heat tablets burned a blue - white flame which was nearly invisible even at night. So one night I decided to pop some popcorn for the guys. I got a gallon can from the mess cooks and poked holes in the bottom to provide air for the fire and then dropped in about 9 or 10 or more heat tablets and a match. In no time at all the popcorn was well on it's way, the aroma was delicious and tantalizing. I had selected a cook sight that I thought was well hidden.  I was between a couple of the large Marine amtracks and things were going well when all of a sudden we were surprised by a Marine guard. Turns out the guard was aroused by the aroma of popcorn and was less concerned about the fire than our offer to share.  Sharing some popcorn with him assured us of his silence.
      The popcorn is now popped and ready to eat - just put out the fire and head back to the compartment. The fire though was not ready to go out.  I must have used more heat tablets than I needed because the fire was not even getting low. Throwing sand on the fire was the only thing to do but the heat tablets still got  a supply of air and flame appeared from the mound of sand, it took a whole sandbag of sand to put out the flame.
     The popcorn was great but we decided do our cooking off the ship.


                                                             Game Time


     We liked to play games in our off time especially if we could place bets on the outcome. We played all kinds of card games though poker was the standard fare. I had no idea there were so many different poker games. We played five card stud, seven card stud, seven card no peek, hi-lo. We had deuces wild, low card in the hole wild, low spade wild,  high spade splits the pot, two's and nines and one eyed jacks were wild. There were times while in the middle of a game we would have to be reminded what game we were playing as it was dealers choice and changed with every hand.
     Sailors get serious about their gambling. My first time aboard ship I walked into the compartment and found a game of Acey Duecy going on. This was a game where each player put money into the pot and was then dealt two cards.  Prior to receiving his next card he places a bet in an amount up to the total of the pot.  If the third card falls between the first two cards the player removes the amount he bet from the pot. If the third card matches or falls outside of the first two cards then the player tosses his bet into the pot and the pot grows.
     This particular game had about six players and they were tapped out for cash so they were accepting backers who would place bets based on how good a hand the player had and take half of the winnings if they won. When I walked in the pot contained over two thousand dollars cash, an expensive watch and the title to a 1966 mustang ( this was late 1967 ). The game went on for another 2 hours and as with most games of chance there were winners and losers.
     Once at sea there was a continuous poker game every night in the compartment.  Cash didn't last long so to keep the interest high a bookkeeping system was set up. Come payday everyone settled up or they were not allowed to play again.
     Poker and blackjack were the standard card games but we sometimes adapted other games. Linda's dad sent me a home made board game that was played with dice and marbles.
     The basic idea of the game was to get your four marbles around the board before your opponents. Up to four players could play and the excitement could become quite high. One of the rules was that if your marble landed on an opponents marble the opponents marble had to go all the way back to the starting point and try again. Treachery and intrigue kept the tension and excitement high as each player had put up fifty cents or a dollar in the pot, winner take all.
     I don't remember the original name of the game, the guys  though came up with another name for it, "f--- your buddy ".
     In a time where the future was uncertain and you were far from home it was good to have something to lift your spirits and make us laugh. There were many things to be concerned about but all it took was a little humor to put a smile on our faces.